There comes a time in our walk with God when we all eventually have to drop our Isaac. Our 'Isaac' in reference to the biblical perspective is something very precious to us, so precious that we feel we cannot do without. Mine was a relationship, with a person from whom I'd tried to derive my personality from and idolize unknowingly.
The time had come and I tried to evade it just as always. But then again, knowing fully well that I'd get stuck at that level of my life if I couldn't let go, the battle in my mind started. With every wall of resistance I built, his word came like a bulldozer knocking it down. Until finally, I let go. I was so afraid, afraid of loneliness, of the unknown, of the future, that I wouldn't and couldn't make it on my own.
Looking back now, we're both glad I did and here I am blazing my own trail, gradually learning to enjoy my own company, embracing wholeness, understanding my role in a bigger picture, impacting my world even if its a tiny little bit of it and walking away with a true friend and a lesser number of exs'.
At that moment of breaking up, it seemed like my heart would rip itself apart. I had finally come to the end of myself with no one else to turn to but God. In my diary, I penned down this words,
"Lord, I never would have thought that I could walk away from this, this ship that so lovingly tried to sink me. Thank you Lord, help me Holy spirit to maintain my stand. The beautiful thing about this walk is, though I long to see an immediate overnight change, You tease me with new heights and points, bit by bit as it comes but so cumulative over time it takes me by surprise. I used to worry about so many things but now I know you've got it all under control and my path is just to follow your lead till I become that woman you want me to be. Help me to stay on this path Holy spirit, I really want to see its outcome. Help me."
Since then, it has been like a new level of knowing God opened up for me. It has not been easy though but it has been totally worth it.
The time had come and I tried to evade it just as always. But then again, knowing fully well that I'd get stuck at that level of my life if I couldn't let go, the battle in my mind started. With every wall of resistance I built, his word came like a bulldozer knocking it down. Until finally, I let go. I was so afraid, afraid of loneliness, of the unknown, of the future, that I wouldn't and couldn't make it on my own.
Looking back now, we're both glad I did and here I am blazing my own trail, gradually learning to enjoy my own company, embracing wholeness, understanding my role in a bigger picture, impacting my world even if its a tiny little bit of it and walking away with a true friend and a lesser number of exs'.
At that moment of breaking up, it seemed like my heart would rip itself apart. I had finally come to the end of myself with no one else to turn to but God. In my diary, I penned down this words,
"Lord, I never would have thought that I could walk away from this, this ship that so lovingly tried to sink me. Thank you Lord, help me Holy spirit to maintain my stand. The beautiful thing about this walk is, though I long to see an immediate overnight change, You tease me with new heights and points, bit by bit as it comes but so cumulative over time it takes me by surprise. I used to worry about so many things but now I know you've got it all under control and my path is just to follow your lead till I become that woman you want me to be. Help me to stay on this path Holy spirit, I really want to see its outcome. Help me."
Since then, it has been like a new level of knowing God opened up for me. It has not been easy though but it has been totally worth it.
As you read this, I sincerely hope that this helps you take that decision you've been stalling for so long. It just might be the gateway to
another season of your life. And no one else can do it for you but yourself. Abraham had to kill his son by himself, how painful! But only when Abraham gave up Isaac did God unleash the full package of the covenant on him. For him it was a child he waited 25years for, whats yours? A relationship, an addiction, a job, a lifestyle, a property? Whatever it is that's standing in God's way of getting to you, give it up. It will be hard, but it is worth it. His grace is available, if only you can just open up your heart and receive the help that only Him can give. Let go of 'the Isaac".
another season of your life. And no one else can do it for you but yourself. Abraham had to kill his son by himself, how painful! But only when Abraham gave up Isaac did God unleash the full package of the covenant on him. For him it was a child he waited 25years for, whats yours? A relationship, an addiction, a job, a lifestyle, a property? Whatever it is that's standing in God's way of getting to you, give it up. It will be hard, but it is worth it. His grace is available, if only you can just open up your heart and receive the help that only Him can give. Let go of 'the Isaac".
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