Whenever I remember the first day I came across the bible verse that said, "Pray for your enemy", I smile sheepishly. I had shook my head with a "no-no" screaming in my it. How could I pray for those who hurt me? As in for what nah?! The thoughts in my head screamed. And the Spirit with a voice always calm as ever, answered, "Cause sometimes you would be the one that has hurt another. Would you love for them to pray for you?" Well,that did it for me, I argued till I knew I had lost the battle. I just said in my mind, "God I don't know how you expect me to do this but help me anyways". I still had some atom of doubt in my mind, I strongly believed all my enemies had to die by fire!
Fast forward, two years after, I hurt a loved one and I sincerely and desperately wanted reconciliation but all my efforts were futile. I eventually went to God in prayer, I still wonder why we find it hard to seek God first when situations arise. And just as I raised the issue, the memory of that which I mentioned earlier came flooding in. A wave of guilt washed over me for some seconds as I realized my folly. I had never really given much importance to that command from the bible until that moment. I didn't know what to say again in prayer that day but God in his infinite mercy made that reconciliation possible. I learned my lesson and ever since, I ask the Holy Spirit to help me cause I know it cannot be done by mere human will. And the tests started coming in even till this very moment. I have had people I hold very dear hurt me and I have hurt people dear to me too, maybe intentional, maybe not but I've just had this amazing urge to be the one seeking for reconciliation and praying for them too no matter who's at fault. I know it is the Holy Spirit that has made this possible and I hope he perfects this work in me because it's beautiful, peaceful and liberating. Reaching out first for reconciliation first even when you're the one who has been offended is not easy but is possible through the help of the Holy Spirit. You can ask him to help you today so you can get on with the incredible business not living cause last I checked, you cannot hold a man without staying down with him.
Fast forward, two years after, I hurt a loved one and I sincerely and desperately wanted reconciliation but all my efforts were futile. I eventually went to God in prayer, I still wonder why we find it hard to seek God first when situations arise. And just as I raised the issue, the memory of that which I mentioned earlier came flooding in. A wave of guilt washed over me for some seconds as I realized my folly. I had never really given much importance to that command from the bible until that moment. I didn't know what to say again in prayer that day but God in his infinite mercy made that reconciliation possible. I learned my lesson and ever since, I ask the Holy Spirit to help me cause I know it cannot be done by mere human will. And the tests started coming in even till this very moment. I have had people I hold very dear hurt me and I have hurt people dear to me too, maybe intentional, maybe not but I've just had this amazing urge to be the one seeking for reconciliation and praying for them too no matter who's at fault. I know it is the Holy Spirit that has made this possible and I hope he perfects this work in me because it's beautiful, peaceful and liberating. Reaching out first for reconciliation first even when you're the one who has been offended is not easy but is possible through the help of the Holy Spirit. You can ask him to help you today so you can get on with the incredible business not living cause last I checked, you cannot hold a man without staying down with him.
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